After many failed relationship attempts, I started to think that maybe I’ve been a little too picky in terms of dating.
I had been in relationships with several great and good looking guys, who all had plenty of wonderful qualities. I was reminded constantly by my friends and family that each one was a “great catch.”
When I would find myself feeling sad or lonely in those past relationships, I just wrote my feelings off as being too needy, or too emotional.
I once even had an ex tell me straight up that I ask for way too much, so I started thinking that maybe he was right and I would just be lonely forever.
I started to think that maybe I complained about things that others just dealt with and I needed to suck it up. Maybe, when I thought something was “missing” from the relationship, it was really just a bad judgment call. Maybe my boyfriends really were treating me well, and I was the one who needed to try harder.
The fear of being alone and the risk of losing someone who was potentially a great fit for me was always far too great to just end the relationship. After all, being single would mean starting over.